So after searching the Internet it became immediately clear that it’s well known that brain damage can and does cause changes in personality along with impairment to motor skills. So WOW that is so awesome to me that I caused myself brain damage. No I’m not trying to encourage that.

So on the bright side, it appears I got lucky because I don’t have any bad side effects except minor annoying motor skill impairment, but now that appears to have been repaired already. Yes, experts are saying that minor brain damage does heal. It's very well known now that the brain can and does repair itself. There are no headaches, dizziness, lightheadedness, spinning sensation, mild confusion, nausea. Although for the moment there is a loud high pitch ringing in my ears, which is one of the symptoms, but it wasn’t there when I went to bed and I’m sure it will fade. The good part is that the personality change was for the better. But hey, there was only one way to go, up haha. It couldn’t have gotten worse. I don’t feel outrageously depressed to the point where it doing chores was like moving a mount Everest.

This was like reprogramming my brain. Neuroplasticity is well known by academics. It happens throughout your entire life where your brain is always physically changing your brain. Part of it's called pruning. Maybe I broke a few billion synapses and the brain had to reprogram itself, of course not knowing where they were connected, so it started from fresh. Why not? Academics electrify your brain with high voltage, called electroshock therapy, and it’s proven to cure mental disorders. It seems smacking your brain around can also cure mental disorders, if you’re lucky. Maybe I discovered a replacement for electroshock therapy. Wow it makes sense. Electroshock therapy obviously does something to the brain. I'm no brain specialist but I theorize what happens is it breaks synapses and therefore neuroplasticity reprograms the brain from fresh, and voila, a noticeable section of your mental disorder is now gone. Although if you don't cure the cause of it, then I'm guessing the neuroplasticity will eventually reprogram the mental disorder again.

Well the only reason I was hitting my head very hard with my fist is because I just hate this brain. It’s so horrible. Why do people cling so hard to life? Evolution! Evolution has obviously kept species alive for billions of years. That’s a lot of evolution to overcome. How? One way is that it forms bad religions and philosophies telling people they’ll fry in a lake of fire being tortured forever because they “God” who created you can’t figure out how to “save” you and wasn’t intelligent enough to foresee the obvious fact that humans would have critical thinking skills given our biological makeup, and a “God” who hides behind the scenes not given rational evidence would lead to a high percentage of humans not believing in said “God,” etc. etc. etc.

Anyway, I think I’ll stop hitting myself. I kinda feel like it was like an intuitive thing. Maybe my superconsciousness or higher-self said, "This poor mortal is never going to overcome this depression. I'll have to intervene." It kinda worked LOL!!!! …….. I just can’t stop laughing………………..