I have to get this out....

My first week is over. It was SO hard going back to work full time, and not working from teh comfort of home... OMG. Like, unbelievably HARD. It was the longest week ever.

Also, I am still very nervous and very scared.

I sat with a professional more junior to me, at least in title, and he knew more tricks of the trade than me. This makes me feel like I don't deserve my "senior" title.

Conversely, I sat with someone far more junior than myself, and I definitely knew more....

Then I sat with the CEO. I feel like I am BSing my way through this. But they will know soon enough that I am an imposter.

Guess I don't feel I deserve this position or title.

Or, perhaps I will do far better than I think. I go back and forth. I really have no idea, but sitting with someone more junior who knew more than me, well, that was very unnerving.

And I realize that working from home in isolation all these years has hurt me. ARGH.

With the guy who knew more, I just absorbed what he was doing and decided to learn from him.... and I will with anyone who knows more than me.

But how can I have this title, above him??? It's not right. I really feel stupid.