I've always been this way but in a way it seems worse now that I'm an adult, but I noticed I can't seem to focus for long periods of time and I zone out a lot, way too much. Enough that some people will notice from time to time. It happens while I'm being talked to, reading something, working, or even watching something. Sometimes while I'm even writing something my mind starts wandering a lot. I get easily distracted too. I've wondered if this could be a sign of depression or anxiety or even a combination of the two. I do tend to feel sad and lonely a lot as well. It is way worse when I am feeling down, but even when I am happy I still struggle with sustaining attention for long periods of time.

I am rarely late for things, in fact, I am always super early since I hate being late, and I am not too forgetful when I'm happy, but when I'm sad, it is way worse. I do struggle with learning new things more so than most other people learning the exact same thing. I also have trouble putting my thoughts into words and trying to explains things quite often. The fact that I am hearing impaired also doesn't help since people may think that I am just ignoring them and since I can't hear as well I am more prone to missing information that I really need to try to listen too. There has been times where I've wondered if I have ADD. When I was a child I felt like I always had to run or constantly walk around, like I just can't sit or stand still. I still feel this way at times but not as much. I don't feel hyper though so I'm not sure if it is ADHD or depression and anxiety causing ADHD-like symptoms. I never told a doctor since I am afraid of being judged by my family but now that I am older and I obviously go to the doctors alone now, maybe I can now discuss my symptoms to him.

I am tired of constantly feeling sad, lonely, and just can't seem to sustain attention and zone out a lot. Also the fact that I have sleeping problems makes things worse as well. I feel like now that I am older, I can seek a solution without getting my family involved. I annoy people because I have to constantly ask people to repeat what they say due to my hearing loss and the fact that I can't stay focused and zone out a lot doesn't help matters. I would love to be happy again and less anxious too. I've always had the problem with zoning out and inattentiveness, but I feel like it affects me more now. Also completing difficult, especially boring, tasks can make it hard for me as well since I constantly delay starting or take a while completing it.

I rarely finish things late but I do struggle, and I struggled academically a lot too, especially during my college years. At work I complete tasks that I'm asked to do but I still zone out a lot and lose focus a lot, as well as being easily distracted. I never got in trouble but I have had some coworkers get annoyed with me when I ask to repeat stuff which makes me feel bad. Also sometimes someone will ask me what I'm looking at when I'm zoned out which is embarrassing. I've always had these problems, but I feel like they are happening too much now. Some people have thought I was autistic but I'm not, but I know that ADHD, depression, and anxiety can have some similar symptoms which is another reason I feel like I should tell a doctor since multiple of people, including family members, have said something.