Been there, suffered that. For three long years.
TG no one gave me "sound advice" like "get over it" or zhit like that.
Nobody wanted to know. I never tried to explain.
I concentrated in the day of my departure. Asking permission to land.

Then I read something positive in the negative internet jungle.
"The Law of Attraction". Goggle it if you wish. It explained, at least to me, why I was in
that dire situation.
Not that I did anything about it. But at least, I knew why.

I needed Lithium to snap out. And I did, gradually. But still wasn't enough. I was content, but not my hyper self.
I had nothing to lose, and against everything written in the 'Net, I succumbed to the SSRIs.
Being avoiding my happiness for three years. PAXIL!!!. 20mg. The 30. Now 10.
The big bad wolf that eats kidneys for breakfast, and will make you 50 pounds heavier in
a week.
Well, I'm waiting. I eat the same. Like a horse, only it's peanut butter jars instead of grass.
A 16.3oz jar a day, will keep the doctor away. With a can or two of evaporated milk.
Breakfast is heathy Cascadian Farm cereal hammered to powder. A 12oz cup with
Wildflowers honey and, what else, evaporated milk , if it fits.
Lunch is light. Tavern jam and baby swiss. four slices each in three slices of bread, with a lot of mayo, mustard and horseradish. Organized by deck.
Dinner is heavier. Steak and sweet potatos, with a lot of sugar cane sugar, a lot of butter and some cinnamon for taste.
Night snack. Peanut butter by the spoonful. With either jelly or evaporated milk in a shake.
Middle of the night snack is lighter. Two cups of Dulce the Leche Ice cream to go to sleep again. Another 500 give or take.

My daily intake is 5k calories maybe?. Not a pound heavier. I'm 5'10" and weight 185lbs.
It's been like this since Adderall made me 28lbs lighter in two months.
I looked super, but felt deprived of one of my most precious gifts. Food.

Why I'm I telling you all this??. No clue. Good Luck.