I am feeling well again today. I had a student to teach and went out. I was tired this morning for the heat. But, I cooled the apartment and felt better as I got ready to go out. I wish my mood was not so changeable like the weather. I feel fine then feel down then feel fine then feel like it is a bummer to be alive. Well, after reading others' messages, we all suffer in some capacity. I guess, the more one has, the more one wants. This is not healthy. What I am saying is the better I become, the more I want out of life. May be this is not so unexpected. But, there is a limit as usual with my illness. I want to push a little harder and see where I can go. Right now, I'm just humming along but at times become easily tired from just doing the simplest activities. I then become anxious and depressed. I realize this is reality for me and am learning to accept it and trying make changes to alleviate my lethargy. I drink coffee occasionally and it helps a lot. But, I don't want to drink coffee daily because the caffeine will lose its effectiveness. So, I drink coffee only when I go out. The other days I feel malaise and lethargy. I know it sounds odd but these "other days" make me depressed. I am thinking I should may be drink one cup of coffee daily to prevent me from feeling so down. I don't know.


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