AAAAA and nightbird,
I cannot thank you enough for your awesome replies. I appreciate you taking the time to write so much helpful and uplifting information. I DO need to start living my life the way I want to and do things that will make me happy until I get the courage to leave. I believe that will help me see that I can manage on my own and life would be happier and more stress free. And last, I know that it may take a while but I can do it when Im ready!!! AAAAA-Your right, being alone would not be as bad as in an abusive relationship....I need to make a plan and stick to it so I can bring my son up in a loving, happy, and respectful home. Thank you again, its so nice to have others to turn to who wont judge you....that is such a relief.