he left last tuesday...i met with him on monday... but the good news is... he will be back for my appointment a week from tuesday...
the plan for Lyn to stay safe is...
use the treadmill (he always gets that in)
take the xanax before i get to the place of no return(lol)
journal
write him letters and mail them to his office... so my thoughts don't get lost.
so far i have done non of the above... i am afraid to take the xanax when i have to drive or am at work...which he doesn't agree with... he thinks i should take it at a low dose and it wouldn't cause me any problems. this promises to be a hard weekend for many reasons... and i have already been thinking about cutting...but... i have to have blood drawn in about 2 weeks... and the place that works would be seen....grrrrrrr and the journaling sometimes makes the urges worse... so here i am stuffing boxes again...lyn