McKell, maybe it is hard for you to hold both positive and negative memories of this person at the same time, and for some reason the negative have won out. Or maybe holding positive memories of this person somehow makes you feel disloyal to your own mother or father. You are brave to keep working at regaining your memories and feelings. Does your T have any suggestions for how to regain the memories? Also, everyone has a skewed memory of events. Your friend may have her own memories but not know the "full story" of your relationship with this person. It could be that your memories are indeed quite accurate.