Wow, yeah, it's a bit different for me but I understand what you're saying. Just do the best that you can, that's all you can ask of yourself. If they notice, they will bring it to your attention eventually, but at the beginning and while in recovery, things can take longer, and they probably understand that. Keeping your own head above water is most important right now, so don't feel guilty about not doing extra to help out. (((((((Hugs)))))))