Is it REALLY an emotional affair betwern both of you or is it only a one sided emotional affair on your side? You seem to need this kind of thrill to keep yourself FEELING something with a female.

Becoming stable yourself is definitely adviseable no matter how lonely you may THINK you feel. That is no condition to have any kind of meaningful relationship in that could ever in the long run make you truly not lonely.

Under no uncertain terms.....leave a married woman alone!!!! Don't even go there & back off from any emotional affair you think you may be having with her.