Thank you both. I've been wanting to do dbt and cbt for a long while now, I'm waiting to stabilize financially. I also just moved so I have to re-establish my support system.

thankfully my boyfriend is very understanding and rational. without me promoting he was looking into my MI's to try and understand where I'm coming from and how I see things. it is a very sweet gesture and I count myself very lucky.

finding someone who specializes is a good idea! I will look for one where I live now.