is such a blur

I read a post just now... it's the 4th july this week

where the heck have I been for the last 6 months?. if I've been living, I've certainly not felt it.

it's nearly 2019 and I just feel blurry

like the last year hasn't meant anything because the first half of it was spent.... I don't know, lost in various time vortexes or something

it's a scary thought that I've been so oblivious to time, I just let it slip by (or rather it slipped by before my very eyes)