Loneliness is one of the worst forms of pain known to man. I've had more than my share of it. I'm sorry it has dominated your life.

Sexuality is a huge component if who we are, but I wonder why you put it so to the forefront. I'm kind of androgynous myself, and people here and there have misguessed my sexual orientation. I've decided I don't need to prove anything to anyone. Maybe you could decide to just "keep them guessing."