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Originally Posted by Rose76
Loneliness is one of the worst forms of pain known to man. I've had more than my share of it. I'm sorry it has dominated your life.
Sexuality is a huge component if who we are, but I wonder why you put it so to the forefront. I'm kind of androgynous myself, and people here and there have misguessed my sexual orientation. I've decided I don't need to prove anything to anyone. Maybe you could decide to just "keep them guessing."
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I think it's because I obsess about sex in general as I struggle to get those needs met. There are the same-sex urges that I can't do anything about at the moment. Also, despite having an IUD, I'm so anxious about somehow accidentally getting pregnant that it pretty much ruins intercourse for me. We used to use condoms but that became a logistical nightmare for my partner who's also too anxious for everything to "work".
I find doing anything by myself to be lonely so I only do it when it is absolutely physically necessary. We just don't have very much time together when we're both alone and comfortable. Maybe once a month?
I hope that wasn't too much for this forum...
I try to stay busy so I don't think about it, but I can only be so busy before I become overwhelmed and I really need breaks...but then I start thinking about sex and sexuality.