Tisha, I am so so sorry you're having to deal with all this stress and anxiety. Divorce should of course never be the first resort.

But, that said, you have surely lived with this man long enough to know one thing for certain: This Is How He Loves.
Period. This is it, all of it, the whole thing. There is no more.
And it's not the how-he-loves that you need, so....Basta. Enough, right?

Hugs to you, my friend. This crap is just plain hard.

xo,

Chyia, BTDT and still have the scars