Okay, I'll bite. "Those living with generalized anxiety often live in fear of the future. Those with complex trauma fear the future because of the past."

What if the past trauma has locked the outcome of the future?

"First and foremost, a traumatized person must be living in a situation which is 100 percent safe before they can even begin to process the tsunami of anger, grief and despair that has been locked inside of them, causing their hypervigilance and other anxious symptoms."

What if it is impossible to ever find a situation where you can be safe ever again because your past will always come back to haunt you? If you're always looking over your shoulder, makes it kind of hard to move on, in that case...

Being more aware for me is simply being more aware of the futility of my existence, which has been amputated by being stupid when I was 16. Thinking about the future, and the reality of my situation does nothing for me but make me despair all the more because the reality is, my future is bleak.