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Old Jul 03, 2018, 12:48 AM
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As for professionals being friendly outside of work, one of my best friends is also my GP, PA. She has helped me get a med I needed that another MD refused to prescribe because they wanted me to come into the office for a treatment with the med I could do at home.

My other good friend is my now retired pharmacist. Both these people have farms down the road from mine. Rural areas are so much different than living in a huge city.

My awesome psycholigist had listened to me talk about a ballroom dance performance I was doing. She asked where & when & actually came to the performance to support me. She knew many other people there because she has lived in that small town for a very long time.

I love the small town atmosphere because so many people know each other when involved in the community & they care.

As for treatment resistent depression.....ugh, 13 years of it & not a med in the world helped & neither did any of the therapy during that time. Went through pdocs because I wouldn't stop attempting sui & they hated the close calls. Basically gave up on me.

Everyone just thought I was overreacting to the loss of my computer engineering career & convinced me that was all there was to my depression that had become permanent disability because it looked & seemed like NO RECOVERY.

THEN.......I got fed up with my bad marriage I was financially trapped in after my mom died. I took my inheritance & left....like moved 2100 miles away to my rural farm I bought. Honestly, the depression & anxiety started to lift almost immediately even with his financial irresposnibility still effecting me with IRS & mortgage companies making divorce still impossible. Finding my awesome psycholigist & 2 years of intense DBT group work, the past came into a very clear picture of just how & why my depression had been so bad it seemed to everyone including myself there was no hope to feel better until I moved.

Thatvdidn't make sense to me at first because everyone had told me you can't run away from your problems because they follow along with you. Not in my case.....& I had to process & understand why I had improved so much wuth the move. 11 years later & my depression is gone. My anxiety level is almost non-existent until I have to deal with my almost ex.....which just validates what the root cause for my mental health issues actually were. It was triggered buy my loss of career but constantly grew worse being trapped in the bad marriage after that.

The freedom & the peace I finally felt after leaving & the fact that healing came after leaving all helped me understand thst past & I learned what behaviors had been bothering me so badly when I finally found the words to express what I had been feeling all along. Giving it words & a voice & freedom from the situation that no one even had the slightest thought it was creating the serious mental health isdues I was experiencing.

We never know what knowledge tomorrow may come regarding the past & present that can open that door to treatment resistent mental health issues especially if they are sutuational in nature.
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