I seem to be triggered very easily,
I look ok and act ok, I’m so used to acting out like I’m ok, It’s exhausting, can do it less now..

Been triggered and I find it hard to do things, telephone calls , shopping, I’m afraid that the couple of people I see just don’t realise, even when I say something , I’ve been so able, and in fact done a professional job in the past that now I don’t think they accept I can’t cope right now, and tbh I can’t tell them now,

I can’t put it into words...I’ve had cbt and mindfulness I’ve never sat back I’ve gone out and when I’ve been feeling ok I’ve researched and I’ve reached out, but I’m getting to the stage where I can’t retain information much and things are becoming very difficult. I think each time I’m triggered badly it gets worse..

I am having psychology sessions, psychologist is great but I realise there’s no money in the nhs for me to have support other than that, I’m afraid I’m not coping and there are no agencies in my area to help, I’ve looked until I’m blue in the face....and I get the impression I’m not seriously ill enough for my psychologist to instigate any further help...

I can’t go to the shops right now as I’m not up to going out, I’m not great on organising home deliveries, it’s complex...I’m really feeling afraid that I’m not coping well and can’t portray that.

Even to my one family member who occasionally helps and is going away for a couple of weeks , I don’t want to bother him really as I suspect his life is extremely hectic but he helps on the odd occasion......
Don’t know where to turn 😩

I have important forms that require copying and forwarding and I’m so worried I can’t get out to do it...if I manage to go it will be distressing for me and I will struggle for days after...