Ruby, you have a stubborn insistence on having your own way. What happens to us is only part of what shapes our behavior. More important is how we view what happens to us. You portray yourself as the victim, even when it is you who is victimizimg others. Ideas matter. You have some very wrong ideas. You believe you are entitled to get what you want from others. That is a problem of morality. That is a character problem. That shows a failure to mature. You are very intelligent. But you use your intelligence to think up rationales to justify your behavior rather than to adjust it to become a better person. There is very little hope for a person who won't admit being wrong. Such a person cannot develop to her full potential.

Most of us have to behave as we're expected to in order to earn a livelihood and have what we need. Maybe, for you, a job is optional. Probably your parents support you. Probably you will always be taken care of because of your disabilities. You seem destined to always be a child . . . morally. As you know, your parents won't be around forever. You have the mindset of a rebellious teenager. You can't seem to grasp that it's not all about you and what you want. You won't always be young. This mindset of yours is going to make you seem rather pathetic ten years from now. In life, there is a price for everything. Pay now . . . or pay later . . . with interest.