I can totally understand what you mean about in this thread.
I’m sorry for your struggles.
I feel similar tbh.
Things have moved on a little around discrimination and stigma but not near enough.
I feel particularly stigma, it keeps me indoors a lot.

Fearing being judged is a big thing for me, I was bullied at school Home and in the workplace and I guess it stems from that, I’m not looking back but it came from somewhere I’m sure..
Every good wish to you