Hello Red daisy, thank you for your kind words.

I fully agree it isn't worse as it used to be, but it still needs a lot of improvement... people give me awkward stares all the time, and most of my peers laugh at me... it's hard living like this, especially when you still live in a dysfunctional family... which aggregates your anxiety. And I am like "Wish me luck to get selected in med school."

What nobody understands is that I am a human, just like 'em. I have my demons, I am not "normal", like others... I have a different brain. But why should it make me a lesser person? They laugh at me due to my inexperience in socialization, I would have laughed too, but it isn't a joke, it's someone suffering and they're having a good laugh.


I am their emotional punching bag. They sort of force me to absorb their negative energy. Which affects my cognition. Which in turns affects my dreams. Which affects my career. Which affects my life...

One of the reasons I want to get in med school is because I'll finally get a chance to escape from the extremely toxic environment I call home. But due to all anxiety and stress, I forget what I memorize and practice. So it's more likely me vs the world now. My classmates don't make it any more easy to study, as they're the main cause of my concern. (I am in a B.S program now. I am going a step back and trying to get admission to MBBS, by re-giving the medical entrance exam.)