Hi Kiya

"someone cares and checks in and that's the cue to try and make myself unable to be cared for" - that's exaclty where I'm at, I told my counsellor more truth this week that i've even admitted to myself before and because since then he's replied to an email I sent, I'm unable to cope, so I understand exactly what you mean. I was very grateful for the email, don't get me wrong, as it was something I was hoping I would get an answer to, but, the very fact he did reply has meant that i'm constantly getting flashbacks, it would have been easier to cope if he hadn't emailed me back, if that makes sense ?

You deserve to be cared for and I do hope that one day you will see that