Thank you both for replying. I will keep in mind what you've both said. Im trying to learn now that this isnt normal. I got into a sort of argument with my pdoc yesterday cause he draws this thing describing it. I told him this is the normal i know. He says its not normal. I couldnt win. So i gave up and decided to accept that i just aint normal. Maybe everyone i grew up around was right when they said i was a freak.