That's fantastic thanks, it's funny I went through a whole list of symptoms with my psychiatrist just last week and she diagnosed me with CPTSD anyway but we didn't discuss that because even though now I think of it this is exactly me it just wasn't something I'd thought of as part of it (tbh I always planned to kill myself at 50 then gradually each day it gets put off one more day, so I literally live one day at a time, now I'm 57 but it's been hard to get to this point).