Thanks so much for replying. I am actually going to the doctor tomorrow. I had labs drawn yesterday. I don't think I have a medical issue, but I am very, very tired, and it is not like me to be this exhausted.
In terms of speaking, I tend to be a bit of a recluse anyway, a bit reflective. But my exhaustion is causing me to be more this way.
I am a little concerned about these test results. As much as I feel at times that I live for my children and at times feel discouraged about my own future, I do not wish to leave the planet. I just want to rest. I wonder if I am having some sort of midlife crisis. My children are older but they still need me and are very much at the forefront of my life.
Part of what has been happening is that I do things with the kids, and then when they go off with their friends or do their activities, I am too tired to do much of anything. So when they are present, I am present. But when they are busy, if I have the option, I lay down and stay alone. It's not good. In some ways, it would be a relief if they found something physically wrong that could explain this, so long as it could be fixed and wasn't heinous.