you sound like my therapist lol.

um. You know. I'm not s ure i want him to exist b/c i dont think he can justify the suffering, lonliness, and pain. All the justifications ppl give me seem like excuses. But if there was a god, he'd be caring, forgiving, understanding, a defender, comforting, open to all people without rules, and be a spirit in each of us permeating the world.