I am here. I am very unhappy, and I do not know why. I am thinking of spending some money that I really do not have to spend. It is related to something I really do not need. It would be another toy for myself. I do not think this is a mixed episode. Buying new toys makes me happy until I cannot afford my groceries. Right now I am on Depekote which I think has been keeping my hnds in both pocket. Maybe sitting on them would be better?