yep - that's it. just as you said it. i was hoping to get a response (and yet afraid and nervous) and then she called and it was far worse for her call (even though i was really glad she called). it makes no cognitive sense - and yet, that's the reality of it.

"You deserve to be cared for and I do hope that one day you will see that "

you also, SOMEone =) you also.