Kiya, I definately think you might be on to something. I have those same kinds of feelings! Like, "Ok, at what point are you going to find that you feel you can't manage me or my problems? At what point are you going to say, you are just too much of a handful w/ too many problems?" I know LOGICALLY that all of this makes little sense. However, in those frightening moments where all logic goes out the door and you don't even concentrate on anything but the "task" at hand (injuring self) I can't even begin to process all of that.

I sure wish I had answers for the both of us! But, the only thing I can do in this moment is to say. "Welcome to my world" It sounds a whole lot like yours. I'm here for you anytime. In forum or PMing

tulips