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Old Jul 05, 2018, 08:02 AM
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Member Since: Jan 2011
Location: RI usa
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Originally Posted by cool09 View Post
I was just diagnosed last year. I'm 54. I've made 1 friend over the last 40 years. I'm just no good at it. Have had bipolar for 40 years which still isn't under control. I've been on disability a total of 19 years and been hospitalized 16 times for depression. Just started a new therapist but have little hope and energy left. My father's my only support, my mother/brothers haven't contacted me in years. I just want everything to go away, it's a terrible life. I appreciate kind words.
WOW so much in common but yet such different background.

I'm hitting 50yo, I am not diagnosed, no medication here. I work full time in retail and I work almost full time at home with my relationship with my girlfriend/wife (at this ago wife is more like it).

People don't associate with me, it goes both ways. so much energy is used up daily just trying to cope/survive. I am so tired I just want to quit. All I get for my hard work is a paycheck that goes away to survive. It's just a big circle of nothing, complete emptiness

Being old and odd, I thought would be easy but it's just so old. Dead inside