Eh I feel strange today. Like I’m grooving to the music but it’s more and it’s foggy... I’m thinking the 40mg just isn’t enough. Which is why we had upped it before...

Just gotta last until next Wednesday hopefully the doctor will have something for me. Whether we up the Latuda slightly or add something to it I’m up for the challenge.

I hate feeling off.

And I can’t stop thinking about what the doctor said. Yeah she said don’t focus on labels but that’s all I can think about what she said. Bipolar spectrum and schizophrenia spectrum. Somewhere there. It’s fcking with me.

I’m seriously considering having a deep conversation with someone close to me. I feel like I’ve been lying to them about what’s up with me. The psych was suggesting that I should have this conversation. The longer I wait the harder it’ll be.

Uggggghh.