Congratulations on following through with your decision not to hurt yourself. I hope you can stick with it, but I know how hard that is. I understand, too, about feeling like there's no reason for people to care about you if you aren't hurting yourself anymore, since I struggle with the same thing. Even knowing that SI is not the main issue, it's still what people react to, and the outward proof of needing some help. And it isn't all about proving it to other people - proving it to ourselves is at least as hard or sometimes harder. But SI isn't the real issue, and definitely isn't who you are, so keep looking for the real you. You are special, and, and you are worth caring about, and you are worth an infinite amount, and SI has nothing to do with it.