So next Saturday, the 14th, I have an appointment for a neuropsychological evaluation for the possible additional/new diagnosis of a psychotic disorder, but I don't know if I want to go to it.

My therapist encouraged me to have this evaluation done because she says I've been having mild psychotic symptoms on and off for months. Plus, she's the one who helped set up the evaluation in the first place.

I was fine with the idea of a re-eval, but idk. I have pretty good insight. For example, I had a man's voice talk to me at 3am this morning telling me that "tonight's the night" that I have to say good-bye to everybody, implying that I was going to die by my own hand and needed to tell everyone good-bye. But I did a lot of fact checking and knew it was a hallucination. It was just as fake as the lime green light emanating from my floor on Friday, or as fake as the two voices constantly throwing insults at me. Basically, I'm used to it.

Oddly enough, I *never* get these symptoms when depressed, except once. If manic and euphoric, then yes, I get them. But I don't see the benefit in getting a psychotic disorder diagnosis like schizoaffective, schizophrenia, PD NOS, or whatever. What do I gain from it, besides possible insurance benefits? I'm already on an AP anyways.