It is official,
I am depressed.
I have not been taking care of myself.
Wednesday, For lunch we went to burger king and I had a delicious Whopper that I had not had in 10 years. I drank too much at the fourth of july festivities, ate fair food, fake cheese chili hot dog,They must have been mild drinks because I did not get buzzed from the drinks/ jello shots so i kept drinking them. I have developed a high alcohol tolerance. I need to quit drinking.
I have not taken my vitamins for 2 days. Got up today and did not wash my face was running late.
My girl friend canceled lunch...have not seen her in ages...I miss her. none of my lunch bunch freinds want to do lunch with me. I hope there is somebody at sandras who I can eat lunch with.
I need to get some more friends.
Today I came home from work early and washed my face filled up my supplies, filled up my pill box with my vitamins and put them into my pocket. Spoke with jeff, he gave me a smooch.
I am not motivated to plan our trip. Last night I met with a friend who is moving away.
We had dinner together to talk about prague she just came back and gave me a map to have and a book to borrow. IT was difficult to look at the map. I am overwhelmed.
Maybe planning/ buying this trip was impulsive like a manic thing?????WE paid for it out of our line of credit. so we are financing it. So we are in debt, I also put my car repairs on the line of credit. So far we are in debt$20k. REpairs on the house and the bed. We also have 2 car payments. I don't like having debt.
It started off last year when we spent $4-5k on a new bed.

Buyers remorse.

We have that financed over 2 years. a $250 a month.


I don't know.
I just know that I feel down.
Need to go sandras for lunch right now, hoping someone will be there to talk to.
I need to get a life....
my addictions are getting to me. I have not lost any weight though I have not been trying. Jeff and I are starting the military diet on monday.
sigh
bizi