Found a vape pen with cartridges and I feel SO much better today. I didn’t go back to sleep at all. I made my pt and chiro appointments. I cleaned my son’s room up a little bit (too mad to do the whole thing, I shouldn’t have to, that little **** lol). I refiled for unemployment. Not sure if I did it right but I guess I’ll find out. I took the trash out and I went grocery shopping. Got ingredients for lasagna and for pigs in a blanket including sweet corn to make as a side. Really excited about that. It’s not summer in jersey without sweet corn.

I rescheduled my spine dr appointment for next Friday. They will likely recommend injections at this point, seeing as the pt and chiro isn’t helping. I’m a little scared of that. Of course my anxious mind goes to “what if I get paralyzed” although I’m sure that wouldn’t happen. Not really worried about the pain factor as I just sat through a five hour tattoo which was quite painful lol so I can handle it. I just hope if I do decide to go for it that they actually help. This would all be dandy if I could take Advil on a regular basis but I can’t due to a possible ulcer. When I was taking it for severe sinus headaches a few weeks back my back was sooo much better. Ugh.

I’m feeling a bit hypo today and I love it. I wish I could see my boyfriend tonight. But I can’t go out. My mom can’t watch my son. I keep feeling like one of these days I’m going to blurt out that I love him. Can you love someon after just four months? I feel like I’ve loved him from the minute we started talking. He was talking about us getting a house together on Tuesday. Not seriously, just in a wistful sort of way, but still. I think he sees a real future with me. I see a real future with him too.

I’m so bored right now. I think I might play my computer game for a little while. No ones answering my text messages lol.