Flooded with anxiety today. Don't remember it being this bad in years. Not sure what is going on really. Took a zyprexa prn earlier and did sleep a little bit. Had some of it yesterday but today ten times worse.

Had a great time at some holiday parties tues and wednesday. Did skip meds tuesday, not a big drinker but had way too much and up too late. So missed some sleep for sure.

Maybe some of it is rebound from meds, but that was 3 nights ago now and have taken everything like normal last 2 nights.

It is general pit of my stomach feeling, and a flood of other things, memories of old stuff. Relationships, family stuff. Had some crazy nitemare type dreams of some ptsd type of stuff from long time ago, I think that has stuck with me all day.

Came out of nowhere and feel paralyzed by it.

My dx is bipolar one. Been doing pretty good for awhile. I do have anxiety now and then but mild for a long time now, doesn't bother me much.

This is not like anything I've had in a really really long time.