Hello (((MOUSE))), I am sorry that you are struggling at this time with this question. I think Cyrano is correct in establishing that SOCIETY in general expects everyone to Survive ,nd not be weakened by defenselessness in their lives. It is more of a conformist type structure in life,where if you feel bad or worthless then it is weakness instead of a mental health issues or looking for a better way out or just needing a break from the depression and feeling of worhtlessness. For some people Just GET Tired and feel that there is no way out, and a lot of people are just not getting their emotional needs met in a safe manner (in life in relationships, or in therapy) and have any hope that the future will be better than it looks to them at this time. Depression is a very debilitating to the emotional system, and to life in general, and that is why it is so terribly important to be honest when you are feeling depressed and suicidal with your therapist,to be able to get the professional help you need when you need it the most,so you can feel better in a shorter amount of time with med adjustments and therapeutic support, and not have to feel that things are not going to get better and become so desperate and feel so alone. Take care (((MOUSE))). I think you are doing a great job at getting your needs met through therapy.in being honest and open in letting your therapist help you at your therapy sessions. Balance is a very important thing in life emotionally. Take care (((MOUSE))). Soidhonia