it's 10 weeks 1 day and everyday is still a struggle... every empty minute... the thoughts to cut are there...i know that when i stopped before i just did it... the doctor in the er let me know that he didn't believe i accidentally broke that glass in my hand...he said the cuts were too deep and intense... that he thought i squeezed the glass in my hand... and my fear of exposure was strong enough to just stop... i didn't cut for 12 years...just ate myself to 280lbs ... i get that in control and loose 130lbs and the cutting began (much more intense)...when i am not cutting i am eating...grrrrrrr....i think i like the results from the cutting better then the results from the overeating...if i have my choice...thin and long sleeves... or fat and short sleeves...hmmm guess my t will enjoy this topic...sorry as you can see i am a mess again...lyn