I had the urge to drive really fast with my music blasting but I couldn’t because my son was in the Car. My mood switched from agitated to happy about midday. I did some manual labor to get my energy out. I weeded the front garden because it was such a beautiful day out. But I totally ****ed up my back and now I’m in pain. I was uncomfortable even standing to make my lasagna. I am disappointed because NV can’t come for dinner. But my SIL is still coming so that’s a plus.

I definitely don’t want to pick up smoking again. My mouth tastes disgusting. My cartridges should come Monday so if I can just hold out till then...it depends on my mood. If I’m super agitated like I was today then I guess I’ll just have to do it so I don’t snap at my son. I don’t want him to be the object of my wrath.

I hate being bored. I have to plan something for tomorrow.