(((Lylli)))

I'm sorry that you've had to go through so much in your life. It can be overwhelming dealing with past issues and present hurts. I'm so sorry about your brother, and can see why you'd feel guilt. But remember we all make our own choices. If you're not already seeing someone, I'd highly recommend a therapist. They can be very helpful both in dealing with past experiences and in making daily changes in our lives that our better for us.

In the meantime, welcome to PC. Hope you find us supportive & helpful.

--splitimage