I'll find out more on Monday, but it looks like I may be heading to a long-term treatment facility. Not gonna lie, I've been barely hanging on, especially for the last few days.

SH trigger warning So, yeah, that's become difficult to deal with.

Last night, I had so many nightmares, kept waking up in a cold sweat and just finally decided to stay up after I had enough. I couldn't shake the feeling before, during and few minutes after trying to sleep that something was terrorizing me. Maybe not entirely demonic but definitely a **** head. Okay, maybe I was convinced a demon was trying to possess me. I still think something is. I'm trying to combat it but... when I feel them inside my head and sometimes causing physical pain, it's so hard to tell myself it's not real. I feel a hand gripping my arm right now. It just doesn't stop.