I left for a vacation at my grandparents cabin in the middle of nowhere with a hypomanic episode. I was prescribed 10mg of zyprexa that night after I called my pdoc and took it that night. My hpomania disappeared the next day. Then, I was terribly depressed and anxious. I started reading my book to deal with depression. I keep having vivid pictures in my head of what I'm reading in the book. My older brother has some major issues and started yelling at me and calling me a loser with no job and no friends. I started crying and retreated to a secluded area of woods near a lake and read and read and read. I've read over 450 pages in the last two days. It keeps me from thinking anything negative. I usually never read. But I can't function normally now unless I read. It's almost like a vompulsion. And the depression kept taking over and I would feel suicidal and go into the woods and read. I just got home this morning and have been reading nonstop. I'm glad I found something I'm passionate about but not when it's a compulsion. I no longer want to be around people.I just want to read. After reading 50 pages I almost get euphoric. I had to stop and get dramamine when I was riding home in the car today because I kept reading and didn't want to stop even when I felt motion sickness. When I don't read for more than 2 hours, I feel very depressed. I hope I'm not turning into a weird hermit with no friends, but that's basically what I am.