No. My other fear is that he'll come around and sweet talk his way back into my life. I'm so ****ing lonely at this point it would probably work. The last time we talked, before they disallowed him to call me last year, he was telling me how much he loved me, etc. This fear is the reason I refuse to delete audio recordings or burn my journals as some people have suggested I do. I don't need to forget what he said and did.