I want to hurt. I want to bleed. why aren't I allowed to hurt? This isn't fair. My sister makes a mess and everyone expects me to pick it up. She broke up with her boyfriend. She has a history of getting with someone ruining their lives and then dumping them. She doesn't realize it's her that makes the mess. It's everyone else fault. She's in so much pain right now. She doesn't understand why her son won't talk to her. I'm okay with if they can't. I ended up spending all my husband's money and now we can't get his school book. No one knows how close I am to falling apart. I'm so broken. Maybe I can convince him not to take me to the hospital. This makes no sense.