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I'm 40 and feel like a loser, a third class citizen. My work experience is very limited. How do I explain this?
My experience is very limited due to psychiatric illness. I had depression in my teens and first episode psychosis in my mid 20s, which put my life on hold. It actually killed my self-esteem and I receded from life. I have recovered. Now, I struggle with bad GAD and social anxiety, with periods of MDD.
Rant:
When I attended the last interview, the man didn't want to know anything about my skills. He was interested in what community activities, volunteer work and sports teams that I belonged to. Naturally I closed off. He then proceeded to ask me if I had any construction experience. Actually I do in home renovation. I assisted my friend for a few summers in his drywall business. I mostly did taping and painting. I know he asked me this because he wanted to determine if me (a lady who is on the petite side) could get dirty, work in a machine shop and deal with guys who say **** every third or forth word. Come on! All this to just deburr parts in a production machine shop for the summer?
Do I have to look like a butch to get noticed in this trade?
This petite lady can install drywall, do plumbing, fix anything mechanical and do delicate machining. I can do mechanical drafting and have even invented some specialized tooling that I hope to one day sell. I manufactured my own prototype. But..........None of this is good enough for a socially awkward introverted lady with a serious side. I always get overlooked for the less talented more confident person.
This is one of the most passionate posts I have ever written.
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Dx: Didgee Disorder
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