Feel free to go on as long as you like and don't ever feel that you're whining. You have reason to be upset.

I realize that this disease is a part of me and no one can put me on a timetable to snap out of it. I also don't try to make sense out of being miserable all the time. Half my family has depression, so I'd probably be depressed with a million bucks.

BTW I've had chronic pain for 11 months and it's only getting worse. It is now threatening to take my volunteer work from me. I started working to keep from going nuts. I now realize I may no longer be able to keep it up.