well - i called her. i was *really* hoping for her answering maching... so you know i got her in person.

She did schedule me in for 1.5 hours on monday and asked me if i'm safe til then... i've never heard her sound this serious. =( makes me feel bad. i said yep, but really i have no idea. i can't know for 2 whole days. i can only work with the moment. i already cut my hair (8 in.) and picked off all the nail polish - things i can "do" to myself when angry without causing damage.

she also told me to call if i'm not safe.... i make no promises.