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TRIGGER WARNING.

About a week ago, I stood outside barefoot while it was raining during a bad lightning storm. I was wanting the lightning to strike me. I thought to myself, "Well, If I am going to end it, I don't want anyone to know it was a suicide. Let's make it look like an accident". Then, I began crying like a baby, got scared and went inside.