I suspect I may be hypo lately as I've had a lot of energy and done a lot of stuff. Some of it was stuff with my daughter over the last week, and this morning, I cleaned and cleaned in my office until it's actually useable. I still have some stuff to do in here, like figuring out what to do with outdated computer programs (stuff from the 1990s, early 2000s) and old computer diskettes. I've got some boxes of stuff for hubby to go through, things I want to get rid of but he can have if he sees a need for it. I have narrowed the number of boxes of books in my office closets from over 20 to 2. My bookshelves are no longer spewing tons of books that don't fit. I'm washing all the bed linens and getting things done. Also, I've been exercising daily.
Now, this is much more than I tend to do on a daily basis (though I almost always do exercise; I tell myself it is to help the anxiety, but I realize a part of it is to shut up the stupid eating disorder voices). IDK, some people may recover fully from an eating disorder, but for me, the thoughts and voices never go away; they are just quieter at times.
So I suspect I'm hypo and not wanting to tell my pdoc. Is it still hypomania if you are getting adequate sleep (7-8 hours a night, most nights, sometimes a bit more, sometimes an hour or so less)? I like being productive and don't want to lose this feeling though I suppose if I am slipping toward mania, the pdoc will notice as it becomes very noticeable in my talking and speech patterns.
I feel for some reason that because I am getting adequate sleep and not engaging in harmful behaviors like overspending, not sleeping, risky driving moves, it's not a big deal. Or is it?
Add on to the fact that I have been on psych meds so much of my life, I barely remember what I felt like off them other than the hypersexuality. Which I'm not sure if that was hypersexuality or just normal teenage behavior.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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