Great, very positive. I just hope it's not a symptom of a breakdown, think about short term goals first brother. Don't get tangled in the web. You have a lot of energy right now, release it! It's healthy. But always be aware of what might come. Don't want to sound negative, I only want the best for you. But with me every time I'm very happy and excited for a long term plan. I can't control it and it triggers me depression. Carry on, don't look back at what others might have done. You're not a bad person, you did some ****? Lol it's nothing man, just your mind playing tricks.
Bless you